The consideration..

hmm..today was a really draggy day..there wasnt the passion to serve in BB anymore, have been feeling this for the past few weeks already, so is God trying to tell me to stop? honestly, i have passion for music.. teaching d other stuff like badgework n drill is ok for me, not a passion..i also realized that today when i was sitting with the joker association of 1st kl, i wanted to do this every week, just sit around n crap nonsense..dont want to be responsible over the boys n d coy..haha..also not very nice, ppl around me all doing stuff, i alone sitting at d side and wasting time..haiz..just want some time away from BB to think it all through..i also feel that im not contributing enough to the coy, if i am, then i think im contributing too much, like all d officers..i noe a lot of u are thinking, "y u complaining so much? other ppl can tahan 20 years plus, n u cant tahan a year also.." well, there is many ways to answer this, n i would say, the answer is in d question..key word: OTHER PPL..God made a difference in ppl..anyway, i dont think i will leave BB, just cant do that, its a big part of my life, all im asking is a break..just to think everything through..

anyway, past few days was ok i guess..btw, wat i said to d ppl who dont read my blog, about d emo, i finally figured out everything that was bothering me..so ya, now im not emoing anymore..

Cheers