Chameleon

so yea, wat do u think when u read d title? Was it positive or negative? k la, it may have been neutral, like u might have just thought of d animal as seen in the pic..so yea, think of it as a human quality, so how is it? positive or negative or neutral?

well, at first i thought of it as a good thing, cuz ur able to like blend into any kind of background. So thinking that it is a good quality, i tried ( am trying) to adopt this quality. Well, so its been years now, and there are some glitches in being a chameleon. k la, its cool la, ur able to talk to(mix around with) all kinds of people, and everyone somehow likes u, or are ok with u..but d problems about being a chameleon is that u dont really have a stand about certain topics, well, u might la, but ur almost willing to put it aside and listen to wat others say..so yea, it confuses u on ur stand..(well, this is from my experience la..im sure others are fine) so yea, after awhile of being a chameleon, u start to wonder, which is my true colours? is it when ur at home? when ur alone? when ur with a certain group of friends? which is it? also after awhile of changing colours, i've like gotten use to the change, and also i "change" colours at a certain rhythm; mon-fri coll(mixed bunch of ppl), sat BB (mostly KL ppl, and quite a strong chinese cultural background, seriously no offense, i dont noe how else to word it), sun church(mostly PJ ppl and cuzins, which is more of a western culture compared to the KL ppl la, again no offense) and also not to mention family, and finally my alone time; so yea, im just soo use to the changing, that when i get stuck to one type, i kinda get uncomfortable, cuz i "need" to change..

so yea, at times it may seem like as though im being moody or emoing by being alone and not talking to ppl, its actually just that im acknowledging the other groups that i hang out with by being alone and thinking about the memories that i have.. also one thing about trying to be a chameleon is that when you are with different groups, it takes energy to like keep the personality that u have, so yea, eventually u run out of energy.. another down side of being a chameleon is that ppl dont get to noe u properly..they just kinda noe ur alter ego, then suddenly find a whole new side of u that they might find weird.. does that sound familiar? there are psychologist that argue that ppl ARE chameleons, where we act differently in different situations, which is true..but not all ppl are like that rite? anyway thats a whole new debate.. k la, we all act differently in different situations, but there are still some characteristics that are still the same throughout the whole time..what im talking about is changing almost all of ur characteristics, like for example, ppl noe me as a quiet guy, and also a noisy guy..so u can say im an introvert and an extrovert and the ppl who noe me as d introvert get surprised that others describe me as a loud and noisy guy, n vice versa..haha, does that make sense? if it doesnt, then its a good topic to think about and come up with ur own conclusion..

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