The Tetris of Life..

I find that my life has been a lot like the game tetris..where things fall into place and they start to make sense to me.. a lot like a jigsaw puzzle..like for example, I did the ADP program, which stands for American Degree Program..n yea, i was supposed to go to USA to study..Minnesota..but yea, something just didnt feel right about USA, although it is a nice country..so i prayed about it, and i had a feeling that God wanted me to go to Australia..in which i did go to, n i can see now why He wanted me to come here..God noes that im still not spiritually mature enough to be leading groups of people, especially in BB..so here I am, just learning how to be a better leader, both spiritually and practically..k, how do i noe that Adelaide would have been a better choice than Bemidji? mostly because of the people that im surrounded with..here there are ppl who are looking out for me, spiritually, n yea, a lot of Malaysians here..n God noes that im pretty easily persuaded..i truly cant say that that Bemidji was gonna be totally different, but i do believe this is God's plan for me..to study and to prepare myself for the future..

The Nepal trip was another tetris experience for me..I mean, it was a pretty impulsive decision i made, but yea, the trip was at the end of my course, and i had a 1 week study break, so i would be back just in time for my finals..in which that it self is quite a risky decision to make..honestly, i didnt want to go for the trip, because of my grades, and also around a year before that, i failed 2 subjects, and i didnt want to repeat that..but yea, that was a test of faith for me, i always say things like, "trust in God" n " He will provide" but i didnt truly believe in this myself..but yea..somehow i managed to go..the whole trip was really God showing us His omnipotency..he really was in control of the entire trip, we were all safe n came back in one piece..it also was very humbling when i fell sick during the trip, where we were already at the village, and i had food poisoning, n I was wondering, "why do You let me fall sick?" "I came all the way, to do Your work, n You allowed me to fall sick?"..but yea, i realize now that God was demonstrating His power to me..that even with a man down (came to a point where almost 3-4 ppl were sick at once, n there is 10 ppl), the work can get done..so yea, when i came home, i did pray and i did study..ended up getting my usual results..Praise God..

but yea..in that moment in time, we dont really realize why is such a thing is happening.."Why do i feel its not right to go to US?" "Why did i fall sick?"..but yea, just give it time, n u will see what is the end product..this is where faith comes in, n yea, Caleb means faithful..so yea, I want to live up to my name..Always honour God first..so yea..now I feel that God wants me to finish me studies first..another jigsaw piece in my life or to better fit the theme of this post, another tetris block piece in my life..

Cheers n God Bless..

ass+u+me= ??

Something interesting came up when i was having one of my arguments with Aaron Wong (truce brother man!) where i made d infamous quote "to assume is to make an ass out of u and me" but then he said, "yes, but when u try to guess or predict something, u do assume" in which got me thinking about the idea more than continuing d argument..because it is true..we do assume when we try to guess and predict..

so yea, wat made me forget the argument (it was another pointless argument i usually have, but usually i dont get disctracted by anything till someone wins d argument..) was the question, "is assuming bad?"

so yea, is it bad? k, again, it depends on what u define assuming is..so yea, my definition of assumption is making an educated guess or soft evidence (feelings, hunches) backing up a statement..now d 1st thing i must emphasize is that i do not say that assumptions are foolproof or even true..so based on that definition, i would say assumptions are good to a certain extent..y do i say so? well, i've organized my fair share of events, and one thing i noticed is that i LOVE to predict events that could occur..by doing so, i will be able to plan for it then the event would be 1 step more smoother..so yes, when i try to predict, i ASSUME that the senario would happen, then think of ways to overcome the issue..so yea, that stops that senario from occuring..

now, that is the more productive use of assuming..what i feel is the more productive use of assuming..what i feel is the problem with most ppl's definitions of assumption is that it is true..for example, husband and wife arguing because the husband didnt buy the right gift for the wife for their anniversary because the husband assumed that the wife just wanted chocolates, but she atcually wanted to go have a romantic dinner..so yea, how did the husband assume that? because he has been buying the same thing for years, and the wife never said anything till 15 years down the road..so yea, the husband assumed that the wife liked just getting chocolates, because of the history, but it did not mean it was something the wife actually wanted..

usually when i assume, i always prepare to be wrong n correct myself, cuz i made an assumption without hard evidence...n of course i dont get angry when ppl make assumptions about me, cuz again, there is no hard evidence..

so yea, thats all for now..Glory Glory Man UNITED!!!

Cheers..

How to be perfectly Miserable?

This is a list made by a psychologist called Albert Ellis, who is quite famous in the counseling world..found this extremely interesting..so yea..i didnt find this in an email or made it myself, it is taken from my tutorial handout.. so yea, credit goes to him..

How to Be Perfectly Miserable:

1) Think about urself
2) Talk about urself
3) Use "I" as often as possible
4)Mirror urself continually in the opinion of others
5) listen greedily to what ppl say about u
6) Expect to be appreciated
7) be suspicious
8)be jealous and envious
9) be sensitive to slights
10) Trust no-one but urself
11) Never forgive criticism
12) Demand agreement with ur views on everything
13) Insist on consideration and respect
14) Sulk if ppl are not grateful to u for favours shown to them
15) Never forget a service u may have rendered
16) Be on the lookout for a good time for urself
17) Shirk ur duties if u can
18) Do as little as possible for others
19) Love urself supremely
20) be selfish

FBC Subang Building Fundraiser Concert Opening

To those who don't noe who is in d vid, it is Ben Jon on guitar (long hair guitarist), Ju-Hann, Lee on guitar as well, Jadon Wong (better known as Yih Ren) on drums, Eunice "Mouse" Ong on piano/keyboard, Michelle Fong, Rachel Tan, and Amanda Shiew as female vocalists, Vei Shaun and Thomas "Tommy" Yap as male vocalists..haha..oo, n the Most perasan bassist u can think of on bass..

come to think of it, i cant believe i said that i felt i was better than the other bassist that day..my reasoning was because i felt i moved around stage more, but as u can see, i also quite barely move..so sorry about that to ppl who are offended by that statement..im a freakin noob at bassing..haha..but all in all, it was a great concert! something i will cherish forever..






Cheers

Stockholm Syndrome by Muse

I won't stand in your way
let your hatred grow
and she'll scream
and she'll shout
and she'll pray
and she had a name
yeah she had a name

and I won't hold you back
let your anger rise
and we'll fly
and we'll fall
and we'll burn
no one will recall
no one will recall

this is the last time I'll abandon you
and this is the last time I'll forget you
I wish I could

look to the stars
let hope burn in your eyes
and we'll love
and we'll hope
and we'll die
all to no avail
all to no avail

this is the last time I'll abandon you
and this is the last time I'll forget you
I wish I could

this is the last time I'll abandon you
and this is the last time I'll forget you
I wish I could
I wish I could

K, im actually quite in love with this song at the moment..haha..but yea, did some research about the meaning of the song (from Wiki) and it said that the song is about a hostage situation, k, for those who dont noe wat the Stockholm Syndrome is, it is a psychological condition where the victims in a hostage situation will start to take sympathy and start to help their captors to achieve their goal or goals..yes sounds stupid but its a real condition, n i think that we all will fall for it..

anyway, so that is wat wiki said the song is about , but i somehow feel that it is about a guy who has fallen in love with a girl, which he doesnt want to fall in love with, but somehow becomes a hostage to her..and so he starts to fall for her, and so thats wat i think this song is about..really is a sad song..cuz u can tell that the ending is gonna be bad..emo song..that is my interpretation..enjoy..n yes, go listen to it..

Cheers

Uniquely Similar

im not sure about u guys, but for me, i always here stuff like, "U are Unique!" or "everybody is different!" n at times i hear, "everybody is the same" "it is the norm"..so which is it? I kinda looked up for pics that are relevant to uniqueness, most of the pics are quite similar to the pic above..all d things are the same shape, just one thing is a different colour..

Anyway yea, ppl always say stuff like, "oh, this only happens to me" and also like, "oh, u wont get it" and i will admit i use to think that wat i went through is something special, n that noone else can understand what im going through..but now, having grown older, i realize, what i go through, there is bound to be at least another person who has gone through something quite similar..so it should be relatable..also we learn in psychology (mostly developmental psych) that adolescents always think that what they go through is unique, and that they noone will get them..wont go into d explanation to this phenomenon, mostly cuz its quite long, and dont i dont really have the time to go to in depth..so yea, if u want to find out more, just look it up..

the thing is, we are not as unique as we would like to think we are..of course my theory is that we think in such away cuz we want to feel significant..cuz yea, again i think that we have this innate desire to feel as if we matter to the world..and well, society doesnt really help by saying stuff as i said earlier..of course the point of all that is said earlier is to motivate ppl and if u think about it, it is quite manipulative cuz u are telling ppl that they are unique so that they will work harder or whatever..but of course it is not all bad, cuz some ppl do need motivation..but yea, to the extent of covering up the ACTUAL truth? K, before moving on further, the question im asking now is are we REALLY all that unique? to an extent, yes, BUT the problem is that some ppl always think in black and white, n not think along a spectrum..so its either ur unique, or ur not at all..like the pic above, why cant we be unique and be similar at the same time? just in different aspects..

Also the pic below also kinda puts things into perspective a little..being unique just isnt always the best thing to be..so how now?


The Bible states that we are all special in God's eyes..but i dont think that means that we are that different from each other down here on earth..the point is to say that God noes us individually, and we are ALL special to him, not that just because we are different from each other, we are special to God..God doesnt love us less just because we worship in a similar fashion as the person next to us, just make sure that u mean it when u worship..

k, the reason for this post is mostly because i am quite annoyed with the way some ppl think that they are soo special..n yea, sometimes these ppl will say "o, u wont get my problem, cuz ur not me" i mean yea, k, i may not have gone through ur problem, but doesnt mean i wouldnt act the same way as u rite?

haiz, yet another post that feels like im not making sense..got too emotional and that kinda made me not have things to write about..anyway, all said is just my opinions, if i said something wrong, please correct me, or anything..

Cheers..