Bleak..is it?

nothing to look forward to..yea, holidays are around the corner, but that is filled with other stuff..At the moment, assignments are due all on the same day, my university STILL hasnt replied me, and i need to reply them by the 30th of November..youth camp is getting closer..stress levels are up, pup is sick, or depressed, both equally saddening..so what is there to look forward to? not to mention the expectations of ppl on me..

K, im not going to lie to anyone, there IS social pressure..ppl ARE expecting something of u..example, ur sitting on the bus and an old lady gets on the bus, immediatly everyone is staring at u, cuz ur EXPECTED to just jump off the seat and let the lady on it..this is ok, but if when u delay for like, 2 seconds, cuz u just didnt notice, cuz ur mind is preoccupied with assignments are work and SOOO many other stuff, then u hear a STUPID FREAKING lady say, "Boleh bagi aunty ini duduk?" at that moment, u actually just realized the old lady, so u already started moving, but as u just start the F****** lady opens her big trap..so yea u get off, then the old lady has a seat, and the FB of a lady then says to the old lady, "haiz, budak zaman sekarang"..AGAIN social pressure kicks in, and all u can do is just shut up while that stupid lady says such things of u..

So what can u do? pray..seriously..and live ur life as Jesus wants u to..another annoying type of social pressure is the kind u get from relatives, adults friends (basically parents friends) where they ask such questions like, "so what are u studying?" or they make remarks like "o, ur son hasn't decided on what to do? u should ask him to do engineering" or " o, his son is studying law, or medicine" my answer to all that is SOOO??!! i really dont give a damn about all that..based on their logic, everyone should study medicine or law or engineering, then there is only 3 jobs in the world..others all not important..still, even so, my question to these ppl is, "is the child happy?" honestly, i get a lot of these questions, because im studying psychology, something that is considered as out of the norm..they ask stupid questions like, "eh, study psychology can get a good job? got pay ah?" its like, "F*** u, there is more to life than money.." but yea, pity them..cant imagine living my lift from 1 perspective only..just money..without the Love of God..

anyway, d conclusion that i've managed to draw from all my anti social behaviour and the analitical character that i have, i've learnt to just satisfy God's desire for u then ur own needs..if ur need is to be liked by everyone, then fine, go ahead and live with social pressure..personally, this is why i participate in anti social behaviour, its to keep myself away from all the annoyance..

yea, i am just venting out now..feel a whole lot better..(dont worry, none of wat i said is a reference to anyone i noe..if any name or situation actually depicts an actualy person, it was merely coincidental)

Quote of the Day,

"Life - Learning Is Frequently Experienced"

- Caleb George Mamman

Cheers