Sprinkles of Malaysia..

One of the reasons why u havent really much updates and also visits to blogs is because everytime i go to my blog, or to others blog, my internet disconnects..(quite potong stim reason rite?) but yea that is d reason i dont really visit much now..so yea..haha..dont mean to put down the internet in malaysia, mostly cuz i always got better internet back home than what i have here..so yea..

anyway when i go walking around the city, i sometimes forget that im in Adelaide..maybe cuz im mixing with all malaysian and singaporean ppl and we always go to chinatown..cuz when i look around i see a lot of asian ppl..n then the tempreature hits me, n in my mind i think "why is Malaysia so cold?" then i realize..haha..also when im at the OCF store room (which is actually Erwin's, Adrian's, and Aaron's apartment, friends of mine to those who dont noe them) we will play the Negaraku..haha..so yea..patriotic or not?

So yea, im not really affected much by homesickness, cuz i dont think i left home..thats wat i think i feel la, could be wrong..n just to make things clear, im talking about how i feel now..i did feel a little homesick when i first arrived, mostly cuz friends, family, comforts n DOGS!!! are not here anymore..but yea, everything else im cool..dont really miss the food, cuz i can have it here..just a bit pricy la..like a bowl of laksa noodles (which taste exactly like curry mee) costs AU$7.50 which is about the standard price of food here..

k, what made me start thinking about this was when a friend took us to a malaysian cuisine restaurant and there we were all talking about good malaysian food around malaysia, whats good where, and the others started feeling homesick, n i was like, "ok..cool.." maybe cuz im not really a huge fan of food..but yea, like late nite mamak sessions, dont really miss it also, cheap CCs, not soo much..

Ooo well..see u guys around, and again sorry i dont update that often..

Cheers..

Easter Camp..

just got back from Easter camp..n yea, i now get wat ben meant by how he felt not organizing a camp or being in charge of anything..u get to enjoy the entire camp..so yea..but that is not why i wanted to post about Easter camp..

This camp really was the first time where i am actually grateful about what happened at Calvary..i mean, when i go for funerals, i always cry for the person that has passed away, but i think about it, why dont i cry for Jesus? he died for our sins..WHICH we dont even deserve such an act of love..so i this camp, I finally am able to appriciate the act..of course i believe God doesnt want us to cry for Him, cuz Jesus rose on the 3rd day..but still, from that question, it led me to seeking a new reason of living..Thank you Jesus..

i noe that sounds pretty duh, but too all those who call themselves Christians, do u truly, and i mean TRULY, appriciate Jesus? u can go on thousands of mission trips, or sing all the praise songs in the world, but if u dont TRULY mean it, it is all useless..

i find it funny that i noe ppl tend to just put God and being a Christian in like a separate box in their mind, where they just live thier lives with their own philosophies, and dont live according to what the Bible says, and when they come to a problem or a dilemma, n u tell them, "what does the Bible say?" i can almost guarantee that these ppl will be like, " but the Bible cant help me with this problem" although they dont say it, u can tell they are thinking it..i wont lie, i use to be such a person..thats y i can almost guarantee this..

So yea, every Easter, I always like over look it, cuz it was "just" Easter to me.."the day Jesus died"..that would be the answer when ppl ask me what it is..it really felt like any other day..but now i truly get it why it is not an ordinary day..

If ur someone like me, who doesnt understand and appriciate Jesus, try to think of it this way, Jesus came down to earth to teach us all away to get into heaven..he came down, to help us ALL get into heaven, and wat do we do? We spat at him, mocked him, whipped him, ripped his clothes, strung him up to a cross, n not only strung him there, but nailed him there, and left him to die, for teaching us the correct way of getting to heaven..the Jews brought him to the Roman Governor at that time, and this Governor knew Jesus was innocent, but he didnt do anything to stop Jesus being crusified..

so yea, how do we be grateful? by following what he thought us..thats all he asked of us..yea its a big thing, but it makes u ask this question, is it worth it? is it worth following Jesus? The Man who died for no reason, other than to carry the burden of OUR sins, so that we are clean..
Thank You, Jesus, and this time, I truly mean it..

Cheers

This Made Me Jump Around Last Night..

MACHEDA!!! U LITTLE RIPPER!!

what do u see?

Life..sooo many things have been said on how life is, how u should appreciate it, how life is futile, how much it sucks..n im sure wat im about to say is something someone else has already said, so why bother saying it again? cuz i dont noe who said it, n i dont intend to go find who said what im about to say n quote the person..this is personal philosophy..


anyway, life is like a Rorschach ink blot test (the pic above) where it depends on what u focus on, that is what life is gonna be like for u..if u see negative stuff, then u will focus on negative stuff, n u will only notice negative stuff happening to u..best example i can think off..u noe how if ur having a good or bad day, n ur out for a drive..if it is a bad day, u find that u get stopped by all d traffic lights that u pass by..while when ur having a good day, the lights are almost always green..k, not sure about u guys, but it happens to me..n so one day i did an experiment, when i had a good day, i counted all d traffic lights n checked how many lights are green n how many force me to stop..did the same thing on a bad day..of course i had to take out some variables, like some lights queue u to stop the next light, no matter what the out come is, or they are queued so that u would get green at the next..so i found that there was no SIGNIFICANT DIFFERENCE..the world goes on without u having good or bad days..

so yea, what is d best outlook to have on life then? positive? negative? well, positive, u might become unrealistic, but negative makes u dark on the inside..like i said before, in like a super old post about being a realist..basically its a mix of both..well, that is my opinion, of course u cant help it sometimes where d world just is out to get u, n u just become soo negative..so yea, play by ear..always remember, "what would Jesus do?" (er, im kinda like forcing myself to post about this, so yea, doesnt feel like my usual ramblings)

Cheers..

Nobody wants to play bass??

like seriously, nobody wants to play bass..why? k, i came over here, n went for OCF (overseas christian fellowship) n tell ppl that i play bass, n the first thing they say is, "WOW! u noe there is a shortage of bassists here" n im thinking to myself, "again?" back home in church, there was a shortage as well, n that led me to pick up the bass..k, there is actually a lot of ppl who play bass in church, but most of them play another instrument as their first instrument..bass is just a back up..to my knowledge, there is 3 ppl who play bass as their 1st instrument..at least i think..

i really dont get why ppl just dont want to play bass..is it that boring? i dont think so..k, maybe ppl dont see the significance of playing bass..honestly, if u only had 2 instruments to pick for ur band, u pick the guitar and d bass or maybe d keyboard n drums..cuz d bass provides the beat for d song..n to me, the bass also provides the energy to a song, it has a very indirect affect to a song..a strong affect..a song can sound empty if the bass doesnt play..

im not sure la..ppl like always want to play an instrument that is a little more glam..like, d guitar, cuz it gives d tune of the song..haha..crap, lost track of wat im saying..but yea, bass isnt that bad..thats all im trying to put out..its not JUST BASS..

cheers

Confessions of a Shopaholic..

now, im not reviewing the movie...haha..i am confessing..WHOA! A GUY CAN BE A SHOPOHALIC??!!! (this does not compute..*%#@BOOOMMM!!!!$#%@*)..yea, as stereotypical we are, even guys can be shopaholics..n d best part is, i didnt noe this till i came over to aussieland..a suuuper expensive place to learn such a thing..yes, i do regret spending all that money..but thank God i caught it at an early stage..i didnt really spend THAT much yet, as in, im still within budget my mum gave me, but still i should have a lot more balance than what i have now..well, i dont really want to disclose how much i spent and how much i have, due to lack of security on the net..

but yea, y did i fall into such a thing? 1 is because when i arrived here in adelaide, i felt like i was on holiday..like seriously..thats y i went out buying stuff, without keeping track of my accounts..of course a lot of the things are necessities, but i was rather carefree when it came to buying things of leisure..so yea, what did i spend d money on? k, 1) me joining a gym, without calculating the grand cost..2) snacks, as i buy stuff that dont really last me that long, but they cost a bit..as in, i spend 5 bucks on chocolates, that last my 1 day..where i can spend that same 5 bucks on chocolates that last me, 1-2 weeks..bad planning..3) k, ben would kill me if i didnt say this (well actually he wouldnt..like he says, "it is your money, u spend it how u want" but i noe deep down, he cares..haha..n tnx ben again for being able to agree to disagree..) i spent the money on buying albums..k, 1st things first, i do not regret buying the cd's..but i actually could have held up longer to buy them back home, where they are cheaper..i was rather impulsive about buying, again, not thinking of the consequences of my actions..

so yea, this is my confessions..moral of the story, PLAN MY FINANCES FIRST..check if i have money first, before buying anything..again, i thank God that i am not in debt..

Cheers and learn from my mistakes..dont fall in the same trap..

Some Where I Belong..

it is always something that annoys us, drives us to act in certain ways..i mean think about it, why do ppl support football clubs? why do ppl fight for their country? why is there racism? well, this is in accordance of the social identity theory, which states that ppl form groups and anything that is within the norm's, is considered as in group, n what is not is considered as out group activity or something or other..so yea, even this theory makes u think, why is there in groups n out groups?

well, i guess this is my variation to a psych theory (psychoanalytic theory), but i think that one of our innate needs that we need to have met is the desire to belong to something..now im almost 100% sure that i've covered this in one of my classes, but i havent really looked up any theory or journals to support this, mostly cuz it is rather late, n im too lazy to do so..but yea..here is my opinion on the matter..anyway, continuing all this questioning, now the question is, why do we have a need to belong to something?

when i first thought of that question, wat came to my mind is that when something belongs to u, u are like the owner of that thing, like ur phone, or any object..so from there i thought, "hmm, isn't this like, proof that God exist?" well, mostly i was thinking it in the argument of the existance of God..so yea, y do we affiliate ourselves with things or groups or ppl? so my argument is, we as human beings know that we need to belong to something or someone..but it is too deeply ingrained in our unconcsious for us to noe that we belong to God..

maybe we dont noe that we belong to God per se..but i think that we do noe that we belong to something, therefore we go looking for things that we think we belong to..but yea, im not saying that belonging to a group is bad..it is perfectly natural for us to do so..now ppl are prejudiced against ppl who are not in their group, they of course treat them differently, start hating them (not all ppl hate), just because they are different..i believe that why we have these prejudices is because we want to be in d right group..n we feel that we have made the right choice when more ppl join d same group as u, so that shows that what u believe in, or whatever, it would make it seem that the group u joined is correct..and this is also one of the causes of peer pressure..of course we all dont act in such extreme ways, but it makes us feel better to noe that someone we meet is also apart of the same "group" as we are..

but yea, i do believe that we all are prejudiced, against races, against religion, sports, sporting clubs..whatever it is, we are..d question is now, how do u define ur prejudices? for example, i define racism as bad treatment against a particular race or races, n by bad treatment i do mean stereotyping them, verbal abuse, physical abuse, psychological abuse, n so on..so by that standards, i do believe im not a racist..but if it is defined as, judging a person based on his or her ethnicity, then i am guilty of being racist, because when i see a person, i first recognize whether the person is male or female, n what ethnicity..to an extent, the world wants us to be racists (by this standards) like when a crime happens n u are a witness, they will ask u to describe the criminal to the police..so u when u say the ethnicity of the criminal, it becomes easier for the police to aprihend the criminal..as much as we all hate to admit this, but we are all racists, by that definition..

but of course, there are some ppl in d world who are totally detached from belonging to anything or anyone..i do think that these ppl have either no desire to belong to anything, they just have not been able to find something or someone to belong to, or they actually belong to something or even someone and believe that it is better than any other group or anything else..noe why dont these ppl have a need to belong to anything, im not too sure, because it could be that they are repressing their needs, or fear of commitment or something like that..there are a huge number of reasons, n it all is true to someone..

so yea, thats all from me, am rather tired, so im not really thinking straight at the moment..so yea, if u read this post, it might be edited 2moro if i find what i wrote doesnt make sense..so yea..sorry if it doesnt make sense..

cheers..