Merdeka Day..

I just realised that this is my first Merdeka Day I'm spending outside of Malaysia..So yes, i decided to take some time off just to share and to remember Malaysia and also be thankful for our independence..

K, to those who don't noe what is Merdeka Day, it is Malaysia's Independence Day..31 August 1957..and yes, i noe quite a number of people think Malaysia is screwed up (and i might be one of them..MIGHT), but it is still home and we should still be glad that we've acheived our independence..

I mean, think about it, I live in a country where you learn 2 languages (other than your mother tongue) which is pretty cool..and for ppl like me, who don't speak my mother tongue, at least i have another language to communicate in..other than that, malaysia is multicultural, where me, being an indian guy, manage to hang around and even be merged in the chinese culture, which is pretty cool..im also happy for the fact that Malaysia was colonized by the British, because now i have soccer to look forward to..

if u really think about it, there is a lot of things to be thankful for being in Malaysia, which i feel sometimes we do take for granted..of course im not saying that if u feel that you have been mistreated by the system or by certain ppl that u should ignore your feelings (if u get what i mean)..what im trying to say is to love the country, the people but not certain actions and decisions that have been taken (im not spesifically refering to anything)..so yes, to all Malaysians reading this, Happy Merdeka Day..



Cheers and God Bless

Just when u think u cant get weirder..

Do you guys know about the Stroop effect? it is this experiment where u need to just name the colour of the word and not the word..a pic below is the example..



so yea, the theory is that you would find it harder to name the colour if it doesnt match the word..eg. saying red for the word "purple"..so the experiment is timed, and it is measures 2 different conditions, 1st is colours that are same as the word eg. red and the other condition is the colour is different from the word, eg blue..so, by right, your reaction time for saying the colour that is different to the word would be longer compared to the reaction time of saying the colour that is the same as the word because we normally read the word than focus on the colour of the word, so for us to say the colour, we need to focus more and that takes more time..we did this experiment today n here is my results..

Word and font same : 680.06665 miliseconds
Word and font different : 619.1667 miliseconds

own rite?

Cheers and God Bless

It's about a feeling that has no meaning..

not bad eh? haha..not sure if the title even makes sense, but i like it..haha..


So yes..y suddenly a post about love? ESPECIALLY since i've like just posted something like a couple of days ago? well, i was reading ppl's blogs, and what i find interesting is that this topic keeps popping out..the topic of "love"..and yea, this of course intrigued me, because i saw a pattern, and i guess as psyshologists (and scientist) when a pattern is noticed, it must be studied..but yea, im not doing a study..who am i to do a study? hehe..

anyway, as i said, i noticed that ppl like to talk about love quite abit..so yea, what i've noticed is that in blog posts, ppl are trying to define the idea of what is "love" or maybe trying to search for the meaning..and well, u can get into technicalities, like the oxford dictionary's definition or what ever..and well, usually it also revolves around the fact that the english language only has 1 word to describe that feeling, which is love..so, u can say that defining the meaning to the english word is like trying to use a blunt tool..

So, what has intrigued me the most is the fact that ppl WANT to define the word..Why can't ppl accept the fact that love is love? it doesn't need to be defined..well, the obvious answer would be that because ppl want to be clear about which definition of love they are talking about..like when a person says " i love my dog" they dont mean it in a romantic kind of way (well, at least i hope so)

So yea, that's d obvious reason out of the way..what i noticed is that ppl are trying to look for a deeper meaning for love, especially when it is between ppl.. it could be romantic, sibling or even parental love, but ppl try to find a true meaning to it..i mean u think about it, doesnt it have like a common theme running through each type (of which im talking about love between people)?

well, i could actually try to strucutize it and find a way to label each theme that is running through love, but that would take too long, and i've gotta sleep soon and all that i would have done would be beating around the bush and finally coming to this point, so yea, here is my point..

⁴Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. ⁵It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. ⁶Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. ⁷It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. ~ 1 Corinthians 13:4-7 (New International Version)

this is really the best way to define love (hopefully by now you guys noe what i mean) but yea, love is not just a feeling, for all feelings require u to act out physically..when ur happy ur facial muscles are more relaxed and u smile more, when ur sad u give off a stone face and ur body language does protray it..when ur angry, muscles tense up and sometimes ur voice is raised, when ur anxious u will act in an irregular behaviour..so yea, i can go through all the emotions we feel, but again, i will cut to the chase..when we feel love we should act it out also..it would only be natural rite? k, i noe that there are some emotions that ppl do show, and some ppl think that it is not right to show these emotions, and well this is where psychologists come in..when you don't express (man, its SOO hard thinking of a non-psychological term) ur true feeling that you feel, it is called repression, and that leads on to more psychological discrepencies..

so yea, thats it, thanks for reading..

P.S. yea, i did read ppl's blogs and was inpired to write this, so if u are one of those ppl, im not putting u down in anyway, im actually quite sure that i've also tried to look for the meaning of love myself n posted something about it, but yea..too lazy to go n look up what i've written..so yea..

Cheers and God Bless

The Dog-Owner Relationship..

Alright, i guess im tired of looking at gloomy posts, SO i will do a comparison of myself with my dog, Jack..

1st of all, Jack pretty much has the same type of "hair*" style as me, where it is kinda bushy..

*Hair being the fur on the top of it's head




k, ignore everything else and focus on the hair..doesn't it look kind of similar?

k, my second point..he has attachment issues..where when he 1st came home, he only liked my dad and just hung around him, but later on he started to become closer to me, which i must say is pretty normal for any person..but yea, in that way he is similar..

Next, Jack doesn't liked to be approached when he is being handled by his owners..yea, well just say im carrying him, n my sister or mum approached him, he would bark and try to bite them (haha, yea serious issues that dog) BUT if my dad is holding him i can approach him, n vice versa..well, as for me, i dont bark nor do i bite, unless ur food, then i will bite and also chew..anyway it is KINDA like me, where i do have my own social circles that i exist in, BB, family, College, and Church..SO i dont really like it when certain circles collide, mostly would be my family with any other social circle..but then again, it is kinda normal rite?

the following point, He is SUPER noisy..hehe..need i explain more? well, maybe to those who noe me well enough, i am noisy..k, he is not noisy all the time, like he just barks at anything moving outside, esp other dogs..speaking of which, he is crazy enough to pick a fight with a dog 3-4 times it's size..me? im crazy enough to do crazy things too..haha..

k, in conclusion, u can actually attribute anything about ur dog's character to urself..it is just a sense of perspective..i guess that the only thing that Jack has in common with me is that he is male, and so am I, and also that he has issues, and that is also attributable to almost everyone..so yea, what's soo special about him if he is not anything like me? He is loyal and cheers me up..




Cheers and God Bless

Only in My World...

only in my world, i can feel like an absolute disaster even when i do something great..
only in my world, i can lie to myself and believe what i said is the truth..
only in my world, reality is not good enough for me..
only in my world, i hate being judged from people and yet crave it at the same time..
only in my world, i am the "sick-est" person in the world and nobody can help me..

only in my world, i can say "screw you" to myself and feel a whole lot better..

Thank God this is not my world, and that He came down just so that even I don't have to live in my world..

Cheers and God Bless..

HA..started la now.....

yea, emoing again..and yea, being here in australia for quite some time now, i think it is safe to say that i can come to a conclusion that no matter how strong u are, or should i say no matter how detached you are from friends n family, you will still miss certain aspects of them..

k, before i came here, my uncle told me that i will go through homesickness or some kind of syndrome, which i forgot the term but yea it has 4 stages to it.. it was that when i reached adelaide, i would be super high for quite some time which is the 1st stage, then moves into falling into a deep depression for quite some time, then the next stage should be me getting use to life here, and d final stage is im alright, as in im settled in..

anyway yea, what i've noticed about myself is that i dont really go through these stages properly (before i continue on, i must say i am no psychologist to come up with this conclusion, and what im saying is what i see about myself) yea, so when i first came, yea i was kinda high, and which i went straight into doing stuff which is me getting use to life..it could be that im still in d 1st stage..anyway, i will admit i did miss home after that (k, all those ppl who keep asking me d SAME question OVER and OVER again, here is ur answer..)but i must admit that i didnt miss my family, cuz i dont think i still appreciate them enough (yes im a bad son)..

so yea, i did get over it, mostly because i did talk to certain ppl, and got emails from d ppl i missed d most, which really made me feel better..was moving along alright, getting back to getting use to life, but NOW im startting to emo again, cuz yea i got my issues, and i do miss ppl back home (d same ppl) and now i really am starting to appreciate my family..

anyway, im getting fed up that i keep emoing..mostly d reason y im emoing is cuz im beating myself up for not being able to perform d best that i can..it is really affecting me, but yea no one can help me now..im tired of the fact that im never good enough, based on my judgements, and d worse part is that i tend to project my expectations of myself as also what God wants me to be like..im tired of being judged my others, and also judging others..i noe we always say things like, "you can share with confidence, and you wont be judged" but i noe that it is not true, cuz deep down in our heart we do judge, i can see it in ppl when they make a judgement..i do it to..

So sick, so sick of being tired.
And oh so tired of being sick.
We're both such magnifacent liars.
So crush me baby, I'm all ears.

~ You Know How I Do - Taking Back Sunday~

i think that is it.. im tired of being nice all the time..cuz when im nice, what it means is that im not allowing myself to act as what i truly believe..FOR example, you noe how i end my posts with a lot of, "if u think this post is about you, it isnt.."? yea, im tired of not writing about ppl that are bugging me, cuz i dont want to hurt their feelings, well, yea i am tired of walking on egg shells all d time..im tired of masking up..yea, im just sick of being tired, and tired of being sick...just like d line of that song..

so yea, what is this post about? it is about my inadequacies AND it is about ppl passing judgement..this post is talking about EVERYBODY who passes judgement..i NOE i do..and well, if you think this post doesnt affect you, so be it..if it does, think again..u sure im talking about you?

a disclaimer that i thought of a little later then when i posted this..not everyone i've met my whole life is judgmental..so, if u really dont think this post is about u, it isnt..

When they kept on questioning him, he straightened up and said to them, "If any one of you is without sin, let him be the first to throw a stone at her." - John 8:7

Cheers and God Bless..

It's a Wonderful Life

It truly is a wonderful life.. this is like d few movie reviews that i do..but yea this movie OWNED..can see why it is Jo's favourite movie of all time..kind of the reason why i watched it..haha..have to admit i did tear up at the end of the movie and apparently im quite stone when it comes to watching movies..awesome movie..dont think i will rate it, cuz different ppl look for different things in a movie..but yea, d storyline was great, although it was 2 hours plus, i didnt feel d length of the movie, it really kept me interested..it is definitely a great classic, must watch at least once..

Cheers and God Bless